i hate how unsuccessful this week has become

1. i feel like a disappointment to a few people
2. my photo class was complete and utter shit
3. couldn’t get into a digital design class
4. I’m only taking 13 credits so I’m short a credit for next semester
5. my work load is going to be so light this semester
6. im not challenging myself
7. probably won’t get the job i applied for
8. i never get any job i apply for
9. made two people hate me within less than 24 hours

on top of that people feel the need to keep telling me “omg ur such a gr8 guy, you deserve so much better” like ok thank you for trying to help but if i deserved so much better and i’m a great guy why do things never change. people keep saying that as if i have so many options open to me and have a long laundry list of people coming after me because I’m such a gr8 guy who deserves better.

i’ll tell you why they never change

i never put in any effort to change them

it’s like I’m stuck in some binding force that doesn’t let me advance anywhere

never

happy

ever

i wish i was just drunk right now

fuck the laws that say you have to be 21 to buy alcohol

stupid shit

i need a therapist

for real